HEART FELT LOVE
An adoptive couple's letter of heart felt thanks to their birthmother, after adopting her healthy baby boy.
All names have been changed to protect their privacy.
(Another successful adoption associated with Christian Adoption.)
Dearest Joleen,
I've been wanting to write this letter for a long time. I've been pondering in my heart on what to say to you, because there are no adequate words that can express all my thoughts, feelings, and emotions, yet I need to say something.
I've experienced so much joy and happiness these past few weeks and it's all because of you. I've cried more these past few weeks than I have in the last several years! It's just an incredible feeling to be able to experience motherhood and that was something that I thought would never happen to me. I have such strong maternal instincts and it was such an empty hole in my life. I really ached to hold a baby of my own in my arms. You've given me all that.
I'm so thankful that you didn't have an abortion and that you chose to give this baby life. I know it wasn't easy to place your child for adoption, even though you knew it was and is for the best. Nathaniel will know that you loved him enough to do that.
I didn't know what to expect when we were going to meet each other for the first time and what the whole birthing experience was going to be like. I knew it was going to be alright when I saw you standing in the driveway and you gave me a hug. Although it didn't show--I was nervous! You don't know how much I appreciated you letting me be in your room all day and to be there for the delivery. It was the next best thing to delivering the baby myself. It sounds crazy but I was glad to see what it looked like to be pregnant. I've never seen a bare belly on a pregnant woman other than what's on TV. It was all so fascinating for me and it was as close to Nathaniel as I was going to get. Seeing the heartbeat and the contractions on the monitor was exciting too. Having those 11 hours with you to visit with was an enjoyable time. I never expected it to be as good as it was. I don't know about you, but I feel that we've bonded in a unique way. To be honest with you when David and I started pursuing adoption we were going to go with a fairly closed adoption We wanted to get on with our lives and not be "bothered". You changed all that. You made all this so easy and like I said we've forged a bond that I don't want severed. I want to keep in touch with you and I even have this crazy dream of you being present at Nathaniel's high school graduation.
I'm sorry that you went through all that pain during the delivery and I wish I could have been in your place--as crazy as that sounds! I hope you think it was worth it all and that the memory of the physical pain has faded.
I may not understand or agree with your lifestyle, but it was because of you that we have Nathaniel. I never will be fully able to express my gratitude, love, and thanks giving to you. It's only the tip of the iceberg!
Joleen, I hope someday that you can experience the full salvation and personal relationship with Jesus that I have. I can't explain it. It's only something that you'll understand once you've experienced it. I hope you don't mind that I pray for you constantly, especially in the middle of the night when I'm awake and feeding "this little guy". You will always be in my heart and in my prayers. God has brought you into our lives and there you will stay. Although it's possible we may never see each other again (I think we will) our paths didn't just cross. I liken it to two paths side by side and we're waving at each other as we go through our lives. At times our paths may merge and we'll walk side by side on the same path for a short while and then we'll go on our own again.
I pray that you will find deep abiding joy and happiness in your life. I wish you success in all that you do. Remember that we love you and will never forget you.
Much heartfelt love,
Kristen
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