KRISTEN: LOOKS UP!
Names have been changed to protect privacy.
(Another successful adoption associated with Christian Adoption.)
...it's interesting how we got to that point. I've been trying to handle everything--running around like a chicken with my head cut off, making a zillion phone calls, and getting myself in a tizzy, a quandary, a pit, a predicament, and whatever. I was at the "Red Sea" with desert to either side, the sea in front of me, and Pharaoh with his men behind me. I was in between a rock and a hard place, between a rock and Satan. I was having fear, despair, making myself sick, stressing David--even my heart had been pounding for two days. That's never happened to me before! I got off the phone and had to turn on the TV which I normally don't do. We watch only a couple hours a week and mostly history, science, PBS--that sort of thing. Anyway I was flipping through the channels and there was this young minister on. Now I don't particularly care to watch ministers on TV but this one---BOOM! Everything he said pertained to ME! I finally broke down for the first time since this adoption started. I told Deborah I wasn't going to cry because once I start I don't stop. Well, I was prostrate and sobbing my little heart out and crying out to God like the Israelites did at the Red Sea. I knew that I could only look "up", just like the Israelites had to do. I crawled to our closet and spent 30 minutes praying and crying. Everything the minister said about "me" was hitting home. I needed to "wait on the Lord", I needed to "sit down and shut up", I needed to lose my fear and "trust in the Lord". I was running east, north, south, west, and not getting anything accomplished. I needed to realize this was going to require a miracle--a divine intervention, because this adoption was going to be a God-deal and He was going to get the glory. I also came to the point that I didn't have to adopt and I could live without a child. I really felt at peace with that. In fact, to be honest, I did want out. I couldn't handle it anymore. But I did place the whole thing in His hands and said I would "wait". That's hard to do! I wasn't going to call anyone and I even left the house. I went to where David was and told him the latest. He'd been praying all day but he was also dealing with anger. Anyway while he was doing chores he prayed to God that an attorney would call and represent our birth parents by this evening. If we didn't get a call--we were going to call it quits. We just plain had no where else to go. We're were eating supper and figured no one is going to call, but guess what? Mr. Smith called. That clinched it for David and he's been a bulldog ever since. I was literally in information/stress overload and was ready to shut down. God had to bring me to my knees. He wanted/coveted my attention. I've been reading the Bible off and on all day. I'm reading the all of Psalms and a few verses in Ephesians. What David said is true--how can this not happen? We have too many people across this nation praying for us. We have people walking up to us and telling us that they are praying for us. God is hearing these prayers going up on our behalf.
(About 2 weeks later, Dave & Kristen successfully adopted a healthy baby boy!)
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