A STRUGGLE WITHIN
Written by Deborah.
4.7.03
The call came in last August and it was a struggle within to obey God's leading.
From the moment I'd gotten up that morning the phone had rung. I switched from one phone line to the other, juggling 2 handsets and a head set. Calls came in from prospective adoptive couples, salesmen, Christian Adoption couples with questions, Christian Adoption couples with needs, and adoption agencies.
My mind reeled from all the information. As I hung up the phone with an upset Christian Adoption mom-to-be, the call arrived. It was the call we pray to receive from a birthmother. On the heels of the call another Christian Adoption mom-to-be called in tears. She was anguishing over the emotional pain of the roller coaster ride known as the adoption process. While I was on the phone listening to this Christian Adoption sister, my struggle within began. I already knew what Christian Adoption couple the birthmother in the call had chosen, but I was on the phone was a couple in dire need to "match" with a birthmother. I also knew that the birthmother's chosen couple was the only couple that met her criteria. But I struggled with how easy it would be to share this new situation with my sister in tears. I tried to pay attention to what she was saying, but my tongue wanted to blurt out the details from this new birthmother. I physically bit my lip to keep my mouth shut. To hear her pain and sorrow was gut wrenching. I thought about how I could end her pain with this new situation, but that was my mind, not God's leading. I put my hand over my lips to keep my mouth shut, even though I was mentally jumping up and down with excitement for the birthmother's chosen couple.
As the struggle continued, I blurted out, "I've got to get off the phone right now."
I hung up the phone and audibly thanked God for helping me keep my mouth shut and the information confidential. I contacted the chosen Christian Adoption couple about the call, and they were on a plane within 24 hours. A week later they returned home with their new baby. .
GOD IS AWESOME !
HE ANSWERS THE PRAYERS OF HIS PEOPLE !
We must place our trust in God and in His ability to provide. It may be a struggle within to obey God's direction, when we understand the pain of others and want to make it go away. As the administrator for Christian Adoption, it's a struggle because I know "too much" at times and cannot share the details. I struggle because I feel your pain, I understand your disappointment, I identify with your deep frustration, and I know the agonizing wait to be chosen by a birthmother.
From the beginning of Christian Adoption, we have refused to usurp God's directives and clear guidance.
We trust God to work within birth parents to pick the best (not perfect) Christian Adoption couple for their child.
We remain committed to trust Him with our whole heart.
We will choose to wait upon Him.
We will faithfully ask for His answer.
HE WILL DELIVER.
HE WILL ANSWER.
HE WILL PROVIDE.
HE WILL BLESS.
(Both Christian Adoption couples mentioned above were blessed by God's answer! To God be the glory!)
For more information please read Right Now.
We encourage you to follow God's loving guidance.
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