SONYA
Sonya shares her heart with our CA family after experiencing 1 failed placement and then 2 months later adopting their son!
(Their son Samuel, was born 10 wks. premature; 2 lbs. 12 oz. at birth.)
Most names have been changed to protect privacy.
(Another successful adoption associated with Christian Adoption.)
Samuel is already up to 7 lbs. 4 oz. and is 19-1/2 inches long! He has gained 3 lbs. and grown 3" in less than a month! Isn't that amazing? The doctor was amazed and said that Samuel is a picture of perfect health. He did some developmental test on him as well and said that he is 4 to 6 weeks ahead of schedule! I am so thankful. God has given me the needed wisdom to provide for Samuel, but it was the prayers of our CA family that have brought Samuel this far. We are thanking all of you for your prayers for us and for Samuel, and we are praising God! He has also been taken off his preemie formula! His preemie formula was $23+ for a 1 lb. can. (We had already used 6 cans plus the 2 the hospital gave us!) Looking at Samuel I know how very blessed we are. God has touched our lives more than we could ever have hoped for. I guess it is my day to feel very overwhelmed by His grace, mercy and blessings.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not unto your own understanding." Prov. 3:5
This scripture has always had special meaning for me. It has helped me through some very difficult times in my life; the inability to have biological children, the loss of my grandmother whom I was so very close to, the loss of my father and my sister. But during the adoption process I have relied on this scripture even more. When we matched with Marnie, I thought this was the answer to our prayers. When John was born, I didn't realize how deeply I wanted a son. We had always said it didn't matter if it was a boy or girl, as long as it was healthy. When John was taken away from us by his grandmother, I couldn't understand why something like this could happen. I thought I had trusted and prayed like I was suppose to. The emotional, human side of me wanted answers. Where had I gone wrong? Why didn't I see this coming? During the grieving process I took a long hard look at my heart. Was I supposed to have another child or should I be so very thankful for the daughter God had already given us? I had many conversations with Deborah and with our minister seeking answers. It wasn't until I gave it to God that I got those answers. I kept thinking that John's grandmother was not a good person. She claimed to be a loving Christian, but in my mind she was not acting like one. That was my grieving heart telling me these things. On June 1st, while having lunch with Deborah, I felt such a release. I was now ready to move on with the adoption process. I had pulled some newer pictures to take to Deborah to put online, but I didn't take them with me. We had some wonderful discussions and I truly knew I was ready to ride that roller coaster ride again. This time I would hang on a little tighter and be more prepared for the surprise turns. That evening I came home and wrote a new letter for our profile. It was very emotional and came straight from the heart. I put everything in an envelope to mail the next day. The next morning I received a call from Deborah telling me about a baby boy born 10 weeks early that was being placed for adoption. I called my husband and gave him the details. We had already decided that the baby's race did not matter to us. We would accept God's gift to us. That was where our journey began. I knew this was our son, yet I was still hesitant. I wanted to believe, I wanted to trust, but I couldn't. That is where the scripture came back to the front of my mind and became centered in my heart. I had to trust in God with all of my heart. It was all or nothing. One week later, we signed the papers, wired our money and began preparing to go to Fort Worth to get our son. Looking back, I have a better understanding of God's plan. Maybe the reasoning is only in my head, but it sure seems clear to me now. When John was born, he was already loved and wanted by his biological family. Even though I thought they couldn't love him and care for him as I could, he did at least have a family. This special little preemie boy did not have anyone to love him. I have no doubt that his birthmom loved him, but there he was in the hospital all by himself with no one to love him and assure him how special he was, is, and would be. We wanted him to know how much he was already wanted. (We know that the nurses there loved and adored him, but it's not the same, as a permanent MOM.) God knew that. He knew this special baby would be a little harder to place. I feel truly blessed that God felt we were the best parents for him. He is well worth all the heartache we had gone through. I guess what I am trying to say is, now I understand why John wasn't chosen to be our son. Samuel was/is God's gift to us--our very special champagne child.
Thanks be to God for His gracious and perfect gift for our family,
Sonya
For more information please read Know and Obstacles. We encourage you to prayerfully consider registering with our service, and/or writing to us.
adoption@christianadoption.com
A non-profit Christian and Internet
service ministry. We're helping others in the adoption
process.
1.800.277.7006 620.251.4405
Deborah S. Hill P.O. Box 243 Coffeyville, KS 67337
www.christianadoption.com adoption@christianadoption.com