ABIGAIL
Spring '04
My personal thoughts about my adoption plan…
Almost 5 years ago I placed my baby girl for adoption through www.christianadoption.com
I never knew what was in store for me then or for the years to come. When I was in labor, the umbilical cord was wrapped twice around the baby's neck and her heart rate fell drastically...resulting in an emergency cesarean. This was a small crisis but at the same time an incredible miracle. I had the opportunity to play 'mom' with my daughter for the 5 days I was recovering. She was more than an Angel for me, it was like she knew what was happening. She was quiet and calm the whole time. I think there were 2 times I heard her crying...one was early in the morning when she was hungry and the other was when I was learning how to bathe her. My whole family visited me that week and my grandmother gave me some roses...2 red ones for me and a pink one for the baby. One day, when it was just the 2 of us (which was rare), I laid her on the hospital bed with the roses around her. It was amazing, but she looked right at me with a small smile. I still have those special pictures. The night before Karl & Melinda were to arrive at the hospital I had a terrible break down. Was I really going to place this beautiful baby? Is that what I wanted? I don't think I slept more than 2 hours than night. I cried and prayed and cried some more. I finally decided I was willing and ready to place her into the arms of my chosen adoptive couple. The next morning was Sunday in the middle of summer, and it was beautiful outside. Blue sky, hardly a cloud, all of life with God was before us. After a quick breakfast and shower, my daughter's father arrived. He and I asked for some time alone with our baby before we left. I changed her, put her in an outfit that I had bought, and both of us took turns kissing her and saying our "I love you and goodbyes". I was ready. Karl & Melinda walked in and sat down on the hospital bed. I handed her to Karl and said "Here's your daughter." We sat for a few minutes and the baby smiled! It was her first genuine smile (she was sleeping--but it still counted). After we talked for a little while, we said our "goodbyes". It was very tearful for all of us. The baby looked up at me the whole time almost in a questioning way. Now, almost 5 years later, I receive pictures of Elizabeth once a year. She's so beautiful! It's still hard for me to believe that I gave birth to her. I know the "baby" in the hospital. I don't know this little girl who's ready to go to school! It's amazing to see what she's become and it's all because of Karl & Melinda. I know that I'd never been able to raise her the way they have. I thank God constantly for them. I'm writing this for birthmothers everywhere. There's HOPE. The pain, the emptiness...it all goes away. I am completely happy in my life and so is Elizabeth. If she wants to meet me when she's older, I'll be waiting with open arms, but it's completely up to her. I've learned so much in the past 5 years, and I know that I did the right thing for my child with adoption placement.
Elizabeth, if you ever read this in your lifetime, please know that you'll always be a part of me. You are so beautiful! I know you'll grow up to be an incredible woman. I love you!
Thank you Karl & Melinda for everything you do. You are truly both amazing people and parents!
Sincerely,
Abigail
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